Moving on from college after graduation feels like a physical loss.
I’m leaving my friends who I’ve considered family, the room I’ve lived in for the past four years, even the structure of having to attend classes and always having something to do. As I drive away, looking in the rear-view mirror feels like leaving behind a piece of myself, a piece that will always reside within those walls. Graduating is exciting, of course, but this place that I’ve clinged to for so long feels like it’s being ripped from me; like I’m drifting away on waves of an unforgiving sea. Now, I’m searching for something beyond the horizon of graduation, whether it’s close to home, or something in another country, across the world.
Something I cling to in the midst of an uncertain future is that Christ will always uphold me so long as I abide in Him. If my life is steeped in darkness, pain, sorrow, He is there. When I cry out to Him through tears, He is there. When I rejoice in my victories, He is there. When I shout for joy and sing of His glory, he is there. We cannot separate ourselves from the power of his love for us.
I am unsure of what the future holds for me, but not of who holds my future. This passage reminds me no matter where I am, I can rely on Christ to get me through not only to the next phase of life, but to also see me through to the end.
Psalm 139:7-10 (NIV)
“7 Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence? 8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, you are there. 9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, 10 even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.”
